No, I’m sneaking… *insert Gollum here*
One day your child will bring home a friend and introduce them and they’ll have the name of a fictional character and you silently whisper “I can’t believe their parents were in ‘that’ fandom!”
REBLOG this to prove you are not a Muggle.
my reblog button fucked up and i almost had a heart attack
I did it in the first try.
OH MY GOD.
MY COMPUTER BROWSER FROZE AND I DIDN’T REALIZE IT. I COULDN’T BREATHE.
But the lack of notes truly worries me
I was born and grew up in a home where my parents taught me that inner beauty is important, but that it’s good to focus on the outer too.
They told me to experience as many things as possible, like doing things that might be scary. Drinking, maybe test a drug, visiting another country either by myself or with someone I barely know.
They told me to not be afraid to get into relationships, have sex and meeting new people.
They told me to not let people push me around and to stand up for myself. And if something goes wrong, then don’t be afraid to get a little angry and say something.
I grew up in a culture where they don’t just eat a lot of beans, lentils, herbs and rice, but also meat.
But I still grew up as me.
I really can’t remember the last time I saw what someone looked like. All I see is a human. I see a life passing by. As I get to know someone, that human, that life, turns into a soul and a personality. Because of this, I have a really hard time describing what someone looks like, because that’s not what I see. Because of this, I think no one is more beautiful than anybody else, and so, I don’t really focus much on my own outer appearance. I want people to see me just as I see them.
Experiencing other countries is something I really like doing, but drinking is something I’m not interested in and I have never tested any drugs. I think my parents are glad to see that, even if they always tell me to experience things.
But even tho they tell me to experience love, I have never been in a relationship and I have never been with anyone either. I’m turning 20 this year but I have never really felt like I need any of it. I like to spend my time doing other things, like helping people, so I don’t really feel like I miss anything in my life by not having sex or a boyfriend.
To help people, I have let many of them step on me. I have been used many times and it’s something I’m trying to stop. I can’t let myself be so naive because that way I only get hurt and in the end, no one gets any help. But I still let some people step on me a little. If I meet someone who’s angry and act rudely, I get very sad but always think that there’s a reason behind everything, and this person isn’t feeling well. And if something goes wrong, all I can think is hey, this person is a human too. Everyone makes mistakes. I don’t really like being angry. I feel ashamed when I feel angry and therefore try to understand the world and people. Angry people scare me a little, because I know how easy it is to lose control.
Growing up with Persians around me have been hard, because I have never liked the taste of meat. So seven years ago, my mother told me that it would be easier if I just decided to be a vegetarian. This way, I wouldn’t have to separate the meat from my food. It wasn’t hard for me at all since I never really liked the taste and as time went by, I even started to find it disgusting. I have always liked every living soul, and therefore, even before I became a vegetarian, I really felt that I was eating something that used to live. I really felt sorry for them. As a child at my kindergarten, I used to scold people who acted bad towards others or who killed ants and other insects. I guess that feeling just got stronger over the years. I’m not one of those people who get offended or disturbed if someone eats meat in front of me, and I tell that to everyone who apologizes. I’m also not one of those persons who try to make everyone into a vegetarian but if someone starts discussing it with me, I tell them why it’s so good to be a vegetarian. And sometimes, I make vegetarian food to show people that there is delicious recipes that don’t contain any meat.
So even if I didn’t grow up after what I saw and what I learned, my parents have always accepted me, even being proud of me. Even tho I scold them if they say someone is ugly. Even if they sometimes think I’m not living my life to the fullest. Even if I don’t dress up much or use make up. Because I’m myself and that’s one of the biggest lessons they taught me. And I will forever be thankful for having such open minded parents that will accept and love me no matter what, and I wish I could make it up to them somehow.
I love you very much, thank you for everything!
I regret nothing.
Thank you for a wonderful day/night!
I was waiting for the train this morning and it was -17 degrees. The train was about 10 minutes late. As I was about to get negative, I realized that the only thing I could hear was the birds singing. It made me realize that that’s how I want to be. I don’t want to be negative, I want to sing no matter what.
Thank you for reminding me of who I want to be, beautiful beautiful birds!
I feel like I have been thinking too much lately. The past keeps coming up. I guess that’s why I have been so angry for about a week. I don’t think ignoring the past is very smart, but now really isn’t the time to think about it. But you’re everywhere… What should I do?
Anyways, it was a good day today. I took one more step towards my driving license (Why did I stop going for it?! It went so well!) And I saw Cloud Atlas. I really liked it! It was… Wow. Some of the things they said were amazing. I really have to see it again and remember some of those fantastic quotes! I reeeeeeaaaally recommend it.
Time to stop being lazy in front of the computer and do something! Bye~
Today I just stayed at home because I have been like a Zombie for three days. I have had headaches constantly for many years, but I have two different kinds of headaches. I have the “normal” ones, that I’m used to and the “not so normal” ones that feels different and makes me sleep because I feel nauseas. The latter one is the one that have been creeping in my head lately. So I went to the train station and went home again before the train came. Sigh… But it was for the best! One painkiller and a tiny nap later and I felt a lot better!
So what have I been doing, except sleeping? Drawing! I have wanted to do it for such a long time now but I feel like there’s no time for it! I kind of didn’t have time today either… But let’s blame the headache for not doing better stuff, shall we?
I’m thinking about doing something with the comics I draw. Like put them here. But I don’t know… We’ll see! *Talking to myself*
On my way back home, I was so sad for… No reason at all. But then I saw a group of kindergarten children exploring the world and it made me so happy! I can clearly see how I have changed. I used to not react when I saw kids. Then I started to get very sad, even crying sometimes if I heard something positive about them, being worried that something would go wrong and that something would happen to that poor child. But now I get filled with hope and smile. They are our future, right? I know I’m very negative on the world and that the world is going towards… The wrong way in a way. But just the thought that maybe at least one of these kids will be kind hearted and help others… Be happy and make others happy… Ahh that thought make me so happy… *Dreaming*
Anyways, talking to much again. So, back to the comic!
Well hello there!
I got challenged by a certain someone to start using my blog to write a little bit about my life, since we don’t live in the same town anymore and can’t talk as much as we used to. She felt it wasn’t fair if I could keep up with her life but she couldn’t keep up with mine (okay, I may have exaggerated that last part…) So even tho no one really… Hang around here, I will hopefully start writing more here and not just reblog things. I’m the king of this castle, and I have spoken!
This probably isn’t a good day to start writing on because I’m very tired. I had to wake up at 5 am this morning after just 5 hours of sleep which wouldn’t have been that bad if I hadn’t had two cups of coffee. At first I was all hyper and then I just crashed as soon as I got home again. Ahh… All the people who have wanted to strangle me today :D … But I had a good day today! I didn’t stress and have been excited for nothing. It was just one of those days I guess. It may have to do with the dream I had about SHINee (so random). It was the only thing that made me wake up so maybe the energy I got from the dream was my fuel hehe.
To be honest, I have been thinking a little bit too much lately and thinking is my biggest enemy so maybe that’s why I had a good day today, because I couldn’t really think. Stop it stupid brain! The past is the past, leave it there! It’s heavy and shouldn’t be in your backpack…
About a week ago, I finished reading the book “Pease look after mother” and wow… It was a lot better than I expected! I didn’t know it would be that special! I got it for my birthday 6 months ago but never really started reading it. If I had known how fantastic and touching it was, I would have read it on my freaking birthday! I don’t know if I really like it that much or if it’s because I’m shocked but I think I just really liked it. It feels like my eyes were opened and it feels like the book describes my mother and grandmother. Old memories, new thoughts, so many feelings… I wouldn’t mind reading it again! It may have been sad, and I may have read many sad books but this story was just so close to my heart.
I have talked about a bunch of uninteresting, random stuff and I think that’s it for today. That’s all my head had to offer today, it wants to sleep now!
… Or maybe hang around on tumblr a liiiiittle bit more.